Tuesday, February 13, 2007

Meltdown

I had a meltdown yesterday and I can't say it was surprising. We (my little family) have been battling winter weather and daycare viruses and crazy schedules and I got really tired. I was hoping my husband might make it home in time to take Manther to story hour at the library. I was exhausted and I wanted to stay home and she has cabin fever and needs to get out. He called me at 6:15 and told me he had another 1 1/2 hours of work. I lost my temper and, after the fact, I felt terrible. He has been working so hard for a boss that is impossible to please in an economy where he has no choice to leave and take another job. Not only is he working himself too hard at this job, he is taking weekend jobs because the pay is crap. I apologized several times, but he woke up sick this morning and I felt terrible all over again. I told him I would do my best to allow him to come home and go straight to bed for the 5-7 days it will take for this virus to pass. I felt like a selfish ass, but I am only attending one meeting a week so I can expect some craziness. I think there's only 7 more weeks of winter left and I am anxiously awaiting spring.
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2 comments:

doughgirl said...

Thanks for stopping by my blog and for the words of encouragement. I really needed to hear from someone else who has walked in those shoes. Funny how we question ourselves to no end. Will I ever just be comfortable with my own decisions and not need someone elses approval or not care that someone else disagrees. I avoid conflict like no one else does. I often compromise myself in order to do so, but I cant stand it. Call me foolish, but sometimes I just wish I had a voice, or didnt have to hear. Ill be coming around more often.

April

Gwen said...

Happy Valentines Day! Been there in meltdown mode myself. Thank God it passes.

Hope today is a bit better>

Gwen