Wednesday, March 28, 2007


I've been told in the program that HALT is an acronym that means hungry, angry, lonely, and tired. When I recovering alcoholic finds themself in this situation, it is suggested that they stop what they are doing and address their needs. If you ignore these needs, you may find yourself in relapse mode or just plain acting out. That's what I did yesterday. I am still run down from vacation and I have been doing a extra at the house because of the empty refrigerator and piles of laundry that accumulate when traveling. The fatigue has made me cranky. My coworker (who really is a nice guy despite my bitching) had a brief discussion with my boss and I felt one of my decisions was questioned. I don't really know if that's what anyone was thinking, but I was an irritable cuss and I got bent out of shape (you will respect with authoriti!). Fortunately, it was the end of the day and I was able to leave rather than get defensive. I still bitched about the situation a lot even though I wasn't at work. Everyone who crossed paths with me last night this morning got to hear my overly dramatic tale of woe. As the day wears on, I'm slowly crawling towards a saner place in my head. Tonight is my meeting night and I really looking forward to it. I bet everyone I work/live with is looking forward to it, too.

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